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Monday, March 31, 2003
i'm trying to forget that i'm adickted to you but i want it i need it i'm adickted to you now its oveeer...
rockin' at 8:17 PM
Sunday, March 30, 2003
i just watched "i bet you will" on mtv... i think that dude with BLUE HAIR is K-O-O-L. I'll see if i can find a pic... Anyway it was damn sick. They got this guy to wear a thong and ask people on the street to throw him a quater pass... you know, american football... and it was sick cos no one (well, almost) wanted to touch his ass. Although it got slapped a couple of times...
Then there was this one where they got another guy to wear a thong and pure corn syrup all over his body... and to stand in a container full of flies for a half hour... Then this cop came along while the thong guy was coating himself... he demanded him to put on some shorts! So he got to do it in pants... hahaha
rockin' at 9:22 PM
Next week is another lonely, boring week ahead... not that i'm complaining XD. Its a very refreshing change... i enjoy doing nothing! i think i'm like looking forward to my retirement. Yeah... maybe i should do that soon.
So my dad told me today when i asked him if i could go watch The Pianist/Just Married with mavis and whoever else... he told me "If anything happens to you, i would blame myself." i knew that he meant it... and i love him lots so i decided i'll impose a self-groundment for next week... til the virus clears up.
rockin' at 9:08 PM
Saturday, March 29, 2003
"Remember, you cant spell danger without Dan!" Danger Dan!
rockin' at 4:38 PM
Okay a proper post now... Last night my mom forced me and my younger sis to go to this party held by this indian pilot. He invited so many of his friends which i must admit, ARE DAMN COOL. He invited this Yugloslavian pilot, who spoke funny english but was nonetheless k00l, and there was this couple, an indian guy and a Finnish lady who spoke finnish, english, chinese and malay even cos she practically lived around the world. There were alot of pilots there... and i got to stand up from 8:00 - 10:30pm yay me. But last night i got to try this REALLY COOL COCKTAIL. Its like a bloody mary, but its spiced up. OH MY GAWD it was lovely. My sis had a cranberry vodka which i thought was too sweet. But my cocktail was HEAVENLY. They has chilies in it and spices and it was HOT but the tomato base was heavenly. Okay i'll stop rambling now.
That indian guy is a damn good cook. In fact he was a cook before he became a pilot. His cooking was REALLY authentic, not at all what you would expect. His chicken and lamb were so well marinated with spices that you could just eat on and eat on, not that i could cos i was too full. In the end we went home too late to catch Survivor. But at least i managed to watch MVP! hahahhahaha. The basketball game was quite cool. Yeah... so sad its the last episode! Aye.
rockin' at 11:08 AM
Hmm. No new pic of clay cos he sucks? Wanna betttttt? Muahahhaa. You asked for it.
Formal shot
First audition where he got the line "You sound like the American Idol, but you dont look like the American Idol" Pssh! As if! Look at him now!
i think this is when he was singing Dont Let the Sun go Down on Me
Here he is awaiting the judges' critism... Or praise should i say.
There. Is that enough pictures for you, mavis??
rockin' at 10:57 AM
Friday, March 28, 2003
Check it out. I've got a new patriotic friend on my links!
rockin' at 1:12 PM
Thursday, March 27, 2003
Just to remind you, this is Clay (like you dont know who he is, pssh...)
rockin' at 11:17 PM
HAHAHHA CLAY HAS 100% VOTES ON MY POLL. You know you like him. So vote if you will.
rockin' at 11:11 PM
SIMON WAS DOWNRIGHT MEAN TO CLAY. i mean... he didnt sound exactly the same! Thats just his style! What does he expect? A metamorphosis to happen every single week? Wonderful song he sang... almost made me cry. *hinthint* And yessS. i downloaded it!!!!! hahahahha. Oh gawd. i think i'm going crazy. Clay crazy.
rockin' at 10:51 PM
FINALLY. JULIA IS FINALLY FINALLY OUT. Damn i couldnt take much more of her singing! i dont understand why Kimberly C was second last. i thought she sang very well... Anyway she has next week to try again. Julia doesnt. Bye!
rockin' at 10:49 PM
I've just found out that the pigs from AIRPORK are fed with 100% freshest grains of whole wheat, making their diet 100% clean, and vegetarian!
That means that yes, all you vegetarians out there can eat airpork!
rockin' at 10:45 PM
Okay. Seriously. It wont take you 5 minutes even! Go Emergency and be happy. It might even protect you from the SARS virus!
rockin' at 10:58 AM
Monday, March 24, 2003
The fish on mavis' blog makes me hungry.
rockin' at 9:23 PM
This dude just posted some good shit on the ffg forums... go here: Emergency
rockin' at 9:11 PM
Thanks to valuable feedback i have received via SMS, i have now decided to add another exclusive, perpetuating feature - a GUESTBOOK! :O Yes yes, you can gasp all you like. i know, i know. i outdo myself sometimes. SO WAIT K. i'm gonna get one now. DONT LEAVE. Actually you can. BUT DONT. Cos i dont want you to :( So stay :)
rockin' at 8:21 PM
Sunday, March 23, 2003
"Some rock star fucking came in a trashed the place!" --Bizzy D, Sum 41 said right after he threw a table full of food over.
Pssh. Rock stars. {MTV how to live like a Rock Star 2}
rockin' at 8:37 PM
I CUT MY DOG'S BUTT FUR YESTERDAY. So now i can see her ass. :O But its better for her now cos its all coolin' and stuff.
rockin' at 7:13 PM
Saturday, March 22, 2003
Just an email some people sent to a forum member on ffg... Her website is: http://www.starseeker.dot.nu/
"Dear Stephanie Wong,
We are the Royale Alliance, a majestic alliance made of royal monarchy from
over four civilizations. We have just aquired a new state-of-the-art personal
computer for royal usage, but we have
decided to give it a test run through the application "Internet Explorer."
During the time we "surfed" the web, we came across your personal website. Your
website shocked all of us - not because of
its brilliance, but because of it's colorful stupidity. We, personally, own our
own royal bases on the internet and therefore know all the pressures a webmaster
or webmistress can ever have. But
your personal website is an utter disgrace! Please listen to the following
advice we give to you, for we almost never provide such precious resourced for a
price of nothing to meaningless,
un-civilized, lower life-forms like you. We have years of experience from
running our royal bases, so you must trust us.
CONTENT
First of all, we understand that a personal website like yours is supposed
contain personal information by yourself. But we are afraid you have left out
an important factor – you must remember to
control the cotent of your website in order for visitors to return with full
interest. Your section, “Respecting Hamsters” suggests that your level of
sanity is extremely below average and you should
be bundled up and thrown into a white padded cell. The language used is far
from civiliazed, let alone acceptable. It tells us that you are infact an
immature loner that is desperate to sound “cute”
and “fluffy” to seek friendship you will never receive in your lowly lifetime.
What enforces this is the lack of attention to the layout, which we will discuss
in great detail in the next section.
LAYOUT
First of all, get a suitable background wallpaper or graphic that actually suits
your menu bars. It is shocking for one to go to a site, see a professional
looking menu bar (yours is not, of course)
and then come face to face with extremely, childish background filled with
flowers and bees and all that. We find this very irritating and a disgrace to
cyberspace. You should go home and rethink
carefully of all the sins you have committed, including this disturbingly awful
layout you made.
We also dislike midi files. They are disruptive and not to mention disgusting.
To make it worse, it doesn’t even work! You should be ashamed of yourself! Go
and find a good host and smell your
ass!
COPYRIGHTS
In our alliance, we have a few serious, hardcore gamers. They are fuming with
anger right now, after seeing your site. Apparantly, you have stolen fanart
belonging to another artist without their
permission and you have not even bothered to LINK them or give them proper
CREDIT. We are very angry with this, because you are destroying and
interrupting human right of others. If we must, we will
take this to our lawyers who will then take it to court and our royal police
shall hunt you down and make you an enternal prostitute which no one will ever
visit. Honstly, would you like it if
somebody stole things from your site (as if they would)? Of course not! So
give proper credit to them.
ARTS
We have never liked dolls much, but now we dislike it even more after seeing
yours. Obviously, your “dolls” show extremely poor craftmanship, meaning you
should get a life and get a porper graphics
program or hand. We also suspect you are displaying “dolls” created by others
under your own name. That, is copyright infringement.
We are absolutely DISGUSEDED by your horrible so called “fan-fiction”, or what
we call rubbish. We have read your Sweet Misery and the content is obviously
copied, not necessarily word-to-word, but
nevertheless it has been overused once to many times by other fanfiction
authors.
Your art is utterly ugly and one of our royal monarchs have gone blind after
seeing it while the others have simply laughed their heads off. Infact, we’re
laughing as we type this. Have you ever
thought of proper proportions and usage of some other media apart from cheap
color pencils? It is certainly recommended that you start seeking the help of
other more talented artists in your age
group and perhaps a psychiatrist. Talking to other artists in real life of your
age group will increase your skill and knowledge. We KNOW you have been dissing
one of them quite badly over the
years, but she is a lot advanced than you are. But that artist is actually
gifted, so you’ll never catch up. You may be bright, but we are gifted and glow
like stars in the night sky (you glow like
a broken lightbulb).
DEPRESSION
We are very, very, very disgusted by the use of the word “depression” on your
site. During our royal visit, we have discovered that you had an imood code
within the splash page. The imood icon read
“depressed.” Well, let us tell you something – depression is not an emotion.
It is an illness, common but serious. You are NOT depressed – infact, you giggle
too much. Depressed people lose their
appetite, interest in hobbies, energy, concetration, meaning of life and they
consider suicide. One of our royal monarchs is currently suffering from
dysthymia, and he is very disappointed in you.
We expect a reply from you , whether is a flame or a thanking letter.
From
The Royale Allaince
:^)v"""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""
+---------+ * Get your own Jmail account.|URL= http://www.jmail.co.jp
|--jmail--| * Get your own home page. |URL= http://www.servance.jp
+---------+ * Get your own domain. |URL= http://domaintorou.com
"""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""v(^:"
No need to say anything.
rockin' at 5:12 PM
Oh yeah.
 
rockin' at 12:10 PM
Friday, March 21, 2003
Clay, you mould my life!
rockin' at 9:56 PM
Clay is afraid of the water!
Dont worry Clay, i'll be your float!
rockin' at 9:54 PM
Isnt Clay Aiken absoutely wonderful? The way he sang last night was stunningly brilliant! And yes, i downloaded his song :)
"Is he that American Idol guy?"
"Yeah... He can sing, right?"
"He's a damn good singer that guy..."
A praise from my father! Amazing!
rockin' at 7:13 PM
Thursday, March 20, 2003
BAGHDAD, Iraq - President Saddam Hussein accused the United States of commiting a "shameful crime" by attacking Iraq, urging his people in a nationally televised address Thursday to "go draw your sword" against the enemy.
Saddam appeared on television, wearing a military uniform, vowing that "Iraq will be victorious," about two hours after U.S. cruise missiles hit targets in and around Baghdad. U.S. officials said the strike targeted Saddam himself and other leadership figures.
The Iraqi leader appeared subdued, and his puffy face showed signs of strain. He wore reading glasses — something he has avoided in public. He appeared less vigorous than during a meeting of his Revolutionary Command Council last week.
"We promise you that Iraq, its leadership and its people will stand up to the evil invaders, and we will take them to such limits that they will lose their patience in achieveing their plans, which are pushed by criminal Zionism," he said.
"They will face a bitter defeat, God willing," he said. "You will be able to achieve glory and your despicable infidel enemies will be dfeated."
"This is added to the series of their shameful crime against Iraq and humanity," Saddam said, describing the U.S. president as 'little, evil Bush."
"Draw your sword and be not afraid," he urged the Iraqi people, before ending the speech by chanting, "Allahu akbar" or God is great, and saying, "Long live jihad (holy war) and long live Palestine."
After the U.S. strike, Iraqi broadcasters repeatedly announced that the Iraqi leader would appear. Baghdad radio carried a message from his son, Odai, calling on the people to be steadfast and promised them victory.
Mohammed Saeed Sahhaf, the information minister, also on Iraq radio, called on Iraqi people to be steadfast and described this day as a "an eternal day in history and that Allah honored the Iraqis with this test."
rockin' at 9:18 PM
SMALLVILLE IS AWESOME NOW COS THEY PLAYED THE GOO GOO DOLLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
rockin' at 12:06 AM
Wednesday, March 19, 2003
Smallville is cool now cos they played JIMMY EAT WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
rockin' at 11:21 PM
Then we played a friendly against JI. Let me emphasise on the fucking word, friendly. Our team was pretty pathetic. Like, hardly any forwards... if only hui ee or whitney came! Instead some sec 2s were made to play forward. Fine. i played midfield... in the beg, it was like... it just a friendly. i dont mind if we win or lose. I'm just here to have fun! But that bitch had to be a bitch.
i got the ball, see. and was moving forward, past her (ie, i beat her already). First of all, if she tried to tackle me, it would be from behind, and thats a foul. But guess what she did instead? She FUCKING PUSHED ME. Not those kind of body-to-body push to get the ball, that kind of push i understand. But she LITERALLY USED HER FUCKING HAND AND FUCKING PUSHED MY BACK FROM BEHIND. Never before in my 4 years of hockey have i seen any asshole do that before. i really couldnt believe it so i screamed at her. She stopped, i stopped and stared at her. She backed off. i took the ball and made a nice pass. Oh, and know what the umpire was doing? Nothing!
i never felt so angry before while playing hockey. i was seething with pure rage. Then after a while, i got the ball again... guess who came to tackle me while i was mid-way hitting? Yes! The bitch! i just gave it my all and hit her stick right on. It flew out of her hands. Yesssss. I'm doing this because i never met a worse player before in my life. i know i shouldnt give it much thought but it really pissed me off. alot. guess now i should clam down.
Think about it.
Oh and i do hope i dont get a giant blue-black thingy on my arm tomorrow morning. Well the girl apologised so i like her and i dont mind :)
rockin' at 10:38 PM
i DIDNT PON eng! Well techincally i pon-ned half of it. BUT I CAME BACK. Because she was counting heads. So couldnt fake. Anyway almost fell asleep... but i was VERY HAPPY. KNOW WHYYYYYY? hhahahahahhahahahha i was playing that crumble or crush game thingy where you click on 3 or more coloured thingys and they disappear. i took over Mavis' computer and played and played... i got like 400,000 points on the first try, and got 8th place (or something) on the high score. i was undaunted, and played AGAIN. AND PLAYED AND PLAYED AND PLAYED. GUESS WHAAAAAAT. I GOT FIRST PLACE!!!!!!!!!! hahahhahhahhahha my score was 1,200,000 points HAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHA.
and no, i'm not obsessed with that game.
rockin' at 10:09 PM
Hello! My, you look ravishing today! Is that a new haircut? Thought so. i knew it! Mavis likes Clay! THATS WHY SHE HAS A PIC OF HIM ON HER BLOG. Pshaw. Isnt it obvious? PLUS SHE DOWNLOADED HIS SONG TOO. AND SANG IT IN FRONT OF ME TOO. Dont be shy mavis. TOUCH MY BUM. DONT BE SHY.
AND NO, CLAY AND PEE WEE HAVE NOTHING IN COMMON. They have like 0.000000000000000000000000000001% in common. Their only common thing is their you-know-what.
rockin' at 2:54 PM
Sunday, March 16, 2003
Wait...
Alex Band
rockin' at 1:12 PM
Okay last night at dinner, my dad brought up the subject of studying overseas. Not in his usual tone, but this time, i could tell that he ws serious. He seriously is thinking of going to Vancouver, Canada to stay there because he feels that Singapore is much too crowded and doesnt hold enough opportunities for us. Although i could understand, and i do agree with him, i felt this part of me thinking, i wanna stay...
So then he suggested that i do my University there for like, 2 years, then see if i wanna come back to Singapore or not. i felt that yeah, thats much better... i dont mind doing my Uni there, my elder sis also said that there is a wider range of areas to study there compared to Sg, and its basically, better than the Unis here.
So now i think i'm really going there in two years time. i dont know about my younger sis... i think she'd be better off doing her A levels here first... after all my mom is gonna be based in Sg for some time due to her flying and stuff. i dunno, but i guess if she wants to do her A levels there, its fine.
i guess i'm really gonna be in for a culture shock when i'm there... its totally different. i mean, sure i have been to many countries, but living there is different. Its not that i dont want to, but its like i'm a bit apprehensive. Its not that i wont give it a shot, but hey i guess i'm gonna miss life here. After all, i was born here.
i guess i am lucky that i am given the choice if i wanna stay or go.
rockin' at 12:47 PM
Friday, March 14, 2003
Wait, before i forget...
rockin' at 10:05 PM
Went to watch the guy's game today after school... it was the Finals! :O Cant believe its only been a week since we last played... A week ago, we would be at Seoul Garden burning our bloody food right now haha... Anyway before that we went to BK to grab something to eat... Did you know that having discount coupons greatly increases your popularity? Anyway anyway, we saw this irritating guy with Toro's hairstyle! Dammit he's like insulting SuuuLing lor! (dont worry stuling, he's not half as kool as you!) Anyway anyway anyway, we headed to Delta Stadium yah, then we were at the overhead bridge, and just came into view of the pitch (and the oh-so-brightly orange coloured jerseys of Monkshill) when we heard a "padook" sound. Then a cheer. Guess what? NO you dumbdumb! RI scored! We? Jinxes? No, silly! Impossible! We are supporters so we bring support! In fact i think we did! Of course we did!
Anyway anyway anyway anyway, the game was pretty alright... not exciting enough to get me up on my feet and say "wow" though... Except for one goal by RI. It was indeed, beautifully spectacular! Some dude passed the ball to him, he was the the top D, all he did was collect and score without ANY hesitation! and the ball was perfect, low and really fast. The goalie didnt react, the defenders didnt react. It was as if they were stunned! The game ended in 5-1 :( but then we saw Mr Nordin after that and he gave us all high fives! :)
Anyway anyway anyway anyway anyway, the finals were up next... it was SAS against YuHua... obviously i'd rather have YuHua win. Dont ask. Maybe its because of the assholes behind us that kept trying to get attention... Assholes. Maybe. Anyway the game was pretty alright... i think SAS should focus more on attacks. But hey who am i to comment? The game ended 0-0 at full time, so it went onto scoring a Golden Goal in 10 minutes. i really wanted to see penalty flicks, i mean i know it wouldnt be fair if it ended in flicks, but i like seeing flicks so there. :p So then YuHua had to go and score during a penalty corner! Darnit. It was pretty unfair too. According to umpire pauline, the penalty corner was never supposed to be given in the first place... then the ball was lifted, although it was aimed at goal, it was still dangerous play. But the bloody umpires allowed it!
Anyway anyway anyway anyway anyway anyway, i had fun. i met this STC hockey player... i mean i knew her since Sec 1, but i never spoke to her before. i just found out that she is pretty cool. And lame. hahahhahaha she's so bloody lame that i laughed so much just listening to her. (Ps: my stomach hurts whenever i laugh so if i laugh its already not bad k) The point whereby i thought she was the coolest was when someone beside me screamed "UMPIRE BLIND OR WHAT" then i turn and say, "no..." and we say in unison, "UMPIRE KAYUUUUUUUUUUUU!" hahhahahahahhahahhahahhahahahhaha. Then a high-five! hahhahahahhahahhahaha.
rockin' at 9:32 PM
No Mavis, Clay Aiken is NOT 101% gay!
rockin' at 7:06 PM
Thursday, March 13, 2003
i cant believe i forgot to bring home my A Maths text book home on PURPOSE. Oh well. Damn now i feel guilty... i just finished my chemistry homework (which was overdue in say... 4 days?) and i still have one more fresh assignment to do. Sigh. Oh, and i calculated my L1R5 today... i got 19 points. Beautiful, right? :) i really need to improve on my Physics and Chemisty. Chemisty i'm trying to cling onto... at least i finally understand a whole chapter! (Thank god for electrolysis) Anyway... on a lighter note:-
I'M ABSOUTELY TOTALLY IN LOVE WITH CLAY AIKEN'S VOICE. i think he sang wonderfully tonight... when i heard his voice and saw his face contorted with emotions, i simply went "omg... oh wow... wow... WOW..." i seriously had goosebumbs and i felt like crying when i heard him sing... it was absoutely completely wonderfully brilliant.
rockin' at 10:06 PM
So then i keep getting this particular e-mail... it clearly says:
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Wow. They sound so convincing... i really think i should go for it. i mean, they already sent me like what... 6 of these mails? Heck i'll just try it. If it doesnt work out, i can always get my refund of my "every penny", right?
rockin' at 9:55 PM
Wednesday, March 12, 2003
WHAT A COMPLETE WASTE OF MY FREAKING PRECIOUS TIME.
i dont even know why i bothered to go there in the first place... Just for a lousy 10 minute sprint to pull my hamstrings. Am i being selfish? i apologise if i seem to. i just wanted to watch the Monkshill match.
Dont ask why... i think i have this fatal attraction to... no, not anyone, but to hockey. When i saw them play i was like 'oh my god i feel like sprinting onto the pitch, grabbing a stick and playing as if i'm in nirvana.' Now, friday i'm gonna be there for the finals. Must. Really. i saw this BEAUTIFUL goal today. Left corner of the post... its one of our numbers, penalty corner hockers! Just a bit modified with a drag push instead of a normal push. Hint: shuling loves this one. Anywaaaay... Monkshill does need more time to settle (esp their forwards) but i must admit that the fact that Mr Nordin raised them up from nobodys to the semi-finals in two years is indeed an amazing feat. **Supports Monkshill** Their defense was very strong today! A defeat of 1-0 is already a job well done. Hope 7 is okay... especially after having his head squished.
rockin' at 10:00 PM
Tuesday, March 11, 2003
You think you're the only one with problems? So what, if you have more problems than me or her or him or it. That doesnt give you the right to bitch and whine, fuckit! Swallow your bloody balls and face up to the world. So what, if the world spits and curses at you? Does that mean you can lie back and moan, "oh hell life sucks fuckit i want to die"? Hell no! Its the perfect oppoturnity to turn around and kick world up its own ass and say "i can make it on my own. i dont need anyone! i'm no weakling. God didnt make me a loser doomed to die before everyone else. i was made to survive." And fuck yeah, you're gonna do it.
rockin' at 7:33 PM
"Oh, dont worry. As long as you get 6 points can already." - MOM.
Yep. Only 6 points what. Nothing much. Simple. All i have to do is flip my hair, wink my eye and snap my fingers. Easy peasy!
rockin' at 7:26 PM
"My last minute center midfield. i didnt know you could play midfield! Haha. You played very well..." Thats the best thing i've ever heard all year... it made me feel so... wonderful. i heart Mr. Nordin...
rockin' at 7:15 PM
Love in, love out,
Find the feeling
Scream in, Scream out,
Time for healing
You feel the moment's gone too soon,
You're watching clouds come over you.
Torn in two,
You close your eyes for some place new,
Torn in two
And I feel it's going down,
Ten feet below the ground,
I'm waiting for your healing hand,
One touch could bring me round
I feel we're going down,
Ten feet below the ground,
It's just the way I'm feeling.
Glow in, burn out,
Lost the feeling
Bruise in, you bruise out,
Nurse the bleeding
Torn in two,
Each time we bruise
And I feel it's going down,
Ten feet below the ground,
I'm waiting for your healing hand,
One touch could bring me round
I feel we're going down,
Ten feet below the ground,
It's just the way I'm feeling.
Yeah yeah, it's just the way I'm feeling.
Two different views,
As words confuse and break
I can't get out,
There's no way out of here,
I can't get clear.
Love in, love out,
Find the feeling.
And I feel it's going down,
Ten feet below the ground,
I'm waiting for your healing hand,
One touch could bring me round
I feel we're going down,
Ten feet below the ground,
It's just the way I'm feeling.
Yeah yeah, it's just the way I'm feeling.
Yeah yeah, it's just the way I'm feeling.
Yeah yeah, it's just the way I'm feeling.
Yeah yeah, it's just the way I'm feeling.
Feeder -=Just the Way i'm Feeling=-
rockin' at 7:11 PM
Sunday, March 09, 2003
"Promise me you wont cry tomorrow because i dont think i can take anymore of these lonely nights with only my brain to destroy my senses and my heart to kill my emotions... leaving me feeling empty and useless."
rockin' at 11:12 PM
Just when i thought i finally got over that terrible, sufforcating feeling of an endless blackhole swallowing up your heart, damn. We met up with Mr Nordin and Rilaini today... in total say... 15 of us? And our lovely coach bought us a lovely lunch. :) Food never tasted so good... i sat with hui ee shan na hui jia danny and june. Oh man i dont feel like being reminded... but it was so... augh. When june started with the story of friday morning, i really was taken aback... Like, i didnt know Tay could be so nice... And when june starting crying i really didnt know what to say. i felt like hugging her or something but she was across the damn table. Thats not only it... He had to call us over to his table... His words really went straight to my heart. My eyes were like wet for half of the time, but i refused to let them fall. At least, i tried. i couldnt help it... i remember the exact words, "Its not over" Thats when i really cried. i never wanted it to be over. i know it isnt. We still have our club, right? After that we went bowling... That really lighten things up hahahhahha. Damn hui jia... hahahhahaha... With her balls like that can get strike, i must really hand it to her! Maybe she should take up bowling as a professional career or something. Hahahhahahahhahaha... After that pauline went to cut her hair (again...? Its already so short.) i had this little voice in me saying cut cut cut but i really ignored it. i will TAHAN. Then wait and see what grad night brings. haha. Anyway we went to play lasermania... hahaha my team rocked. Hui ee really score damn well... i stayed as defense :D Surprise surprise... Me and shanna held them off pretty well. In the end we won 186 (or something) to -36... hahaha... i like my shot ratio though, 48% (highest :p) and my points not bad considering i shot people mostly. Maybe i should take up shooting or something. Hunt on weekends. Hunt birds or people. Nah... i'd rather hunt people. Then i had to make my way back already... almost 7 cos i had dinner at home... Went with pau and danny... then met one of their friends at the cine cafe... He is so damn lame! hahahhahahha... Wtf you like a cafe cos you knocked your head on the bloody glass thing ahahahhahahahha... He looks like a little kid when he smiles... anyway the other guy playing with his "heelies" was damn funny. He almost fell like so many times and danny laughed so bloody loud. Anyway what a silly question, pau! If i take the Mrt from orchard, where do i go? Orchard = nearest for me. i can actually walk home from orchard. Not that i want to. But i can. See. i can do so many things if i want to. But i dont. But that doesnt mean i cant. So i can. But i'm not. But hey thats not the point. i can.
rockin' at 11:09 PM
Friday, March 07, 2003
My hands are trembling right now. My whole body is exhausted, it is as if i dragged myself halfway round the world with a load of fuckwits on my back with a tonne of stone blocks tied to my ankles. My shoulders droop, my eyes close. i tell you one thing. i gave it my all today. We gave it our best shot, dont say we didnt. Dont say "what if" or "i should have" because it makes no difference now, and really, i dont care because i love all of you. Each and every one of you, no matter what you say or do. You make me so proud to know that i'm part of such a great, unbelieveable team. Hold your heads up high. We showed Northland and everyone present (and not), what we were made of. We never gave up, not even for a second. When you felt your body say "i'm tired i cant run anymore please stop..." you bloody hell told your brain "i'm NOT tired" and you continued running and running, even if your heart beat so fast that you were afraid it'd explode, and your lungs worked so hard that it hurt... Not that you felt the pain. i did my best, i really did. My ball just HAD to hit the post. The post. The post of all things. The post. i never imagined that the sound of that could hurt me so bad. It killed me. It still haunts me. I'm sorry i'm starting to cry all over again. i went into hockey never really loving the game. i just regarded it as another part of school. Or something. i felt that i was okay at it, the games i played were never really great. Only until the tournament of 2003 begun then did i feel a part of me realise that yes, i am part of the game. Its not just a game. Its life. They say you dont know what you have until you've lost it. i know i havent lost you, Crescent Hockey, but i miss you already. i miss all our trainings, i miss our games. i miss our laughter, i miss our tears. i miss our beloved coach, Mr Nordin, i miss his silly ways. i miss our team talks, i miss the support. i miss the scoldings, i miss the praise. i miss Crescent Hockey. i never knew i could get so attached to a silly sport. i never knew i could get so attached to you bunch of silly talented lovable people. i never knew i could get so attached. i really will miss everything, please dont forget how much these past 4 years mean to us. i dont think a team can be as special and wonderful and unique as us. No matter what happens to the rest of us, each of you... remember our peak, our glory. Remember our happiness, remember our pain. Remember our love. Henceforth, we close the doors on our wonderful, memorable 4 years of Crescent Hockey. The doors may be closed, but the memories are still crisp and fresh in our minds. The feeling is still strong in our hearts. That tugging, nagging feeling...
rockin' at 11:53 PM
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