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Friday, May 30, 2003
Stranger than your sympathy
And this is my apology
I killed myself from the inside out
And all my fears have pushed you out
And I wished for things that I don't need
(All I wanted)
And what I chased won't set me free
(All I wanted)
And I get scared but I'm not crawlin' on my knees
Oh, yeah
Everything's all wrong, yeah
Everything's all wrong, yeah
Where the hell did I think I was?
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We're taught to lead the life you choose
(All I wanted)
You know your love's run out on you
(All I wanted)
And you can't see when all your dreams aren't coming true
Oh, yeah
It's easy to forget, yeah
When you choke on the regrets, yeah
Who the hell did I think I was?
...
And I was in love with things I tried to make you believe I was
And I wouldn't be the one to kneel before the dreams I wanted
And all the dark and all the lies were all the empty things disguised as me
--The Goo Goo Dolls, Sympathy
rockin' at 6:57 PM
"Like, you arent exactly a rock star?"
i just came home from a nice walk/run with my doggie and daddy. i first ran to delta after i came home from "lunch" with hui ee and shanna... man halfway there i was ABOUT TO PUKE. Nevermind. KFC is good for you. Chicken fats are good for you. i had to rush there cos i was afraid i would be late, and have to pass the admin at Delta my passport photo tomorrow, before 12 (which is pretty inconvenient for me) so i ran there with my jersey and horrible school shorts on.
i arrived there halfway through a hockey match, i think it was an A division match. i saw a goal. Man was that goal mighty dumb. It was a bloody trickle into the goal mouth, with the defender simply staring at the ball enter, with her stick held up. LIKE HELLO?!?!?! If you bloody well STARE at the ball, MAYBE it might NOT GO IN?!?!??! Gawd i decided not to stick after that. So after i said hi and gave them my photo and i quickly left. Thats the kind of game that you do not wish to watch at all. i dont blame them, i mean sure they are beginners. But i'm sorry i wouldnt like to stick around :( i left!
i was supposed to meet my dad and doggie at the post office. But they werent there yet when i reached there. So i decided to run a bit. Hey why not? i've got my running gear on. So i went. And ran... a couple of rounds til i was tired and could feel the bloody chicken crawling up my throat. Then i stopped. Then i continued walking my dog with my daddy. Then we came home! So here i am :)
Hmm... Is there anything else to blog about? Erm today was pretty boring. :o Played chinese chess... about 3 times (my first time playing!!!) and i managed to beat Karen on my third try! (with a tiny bit of help from yee teng) hahhahaha... Then hmm. Not much lah... Too bad i have a boring school. Oooo wait there's one thing. Got this "fight" or little "tiff" between some other classes versus our class people who play bball. hahaha silly silly people. Its only a game! You're supposed to have fun. Lighten up. But hey if they arent ever going to play against them again, great for them. They wont be complaining.
OOOO i just got a new hair pin thingy today. Me and hui ee got one each. Its ultra-rare and unbuyable! Wont tell where we got it from ;) Hahahhaa so scary when we got it... almost got run down by a bloody truck :(
Okay i think i'd better go bathe right now. i smell. Then later can watch The Amazing Race! Love that show. Anyway hai, tomorrow i'll be some baichi carrying two big fat coolers onto the bus, like i'm going sentosa or something. BUT BEFORE i go to sentosa, i need a boyfriend first. Damn. Know where i can buy one?
rockin' at 6:48 PM
Thursday, May 29, 2003
"Hye yoo theer plaay wit hme som chesss wil' ya?"
rockin' at 8:02 PM
i forgot to tell myself something.
I GREW ONE CM!!!11 Ahahahhahahaha i'm so proud of myself. Must be the milk i drink!
rockin' at 8:01 PM
Wednesday, May 28, 2003
Girls dont like boys. Girls like cars and money.
And These Girls Like These Boys, Like These Boys Like These Girls
The Girls With the Bodies Like Boys With Ferraris
Lets go! {{{G.C.}}}
Got back my results, (who hasnt?) didnt do as well as i wanted to, (who did?) wished i worked harder (yeah right.) Hahaha... i'm in a happy mood today, dont ask why... Must be because of my nice little nap just now. Anyway i wont spell out anything, just that i'm very sad that Fariza AND Whitney are dropping to sub :(:(:( Dunno why, maybe because i think they can actually do it. You know? A waste and such. But anyway that way they'll most probably get their As easily. Hmm. That does get your lil' rusty brain working, huh? To drop or not to drop? To puke out my bloody dinner ot not? No i'm not bloody bulimic! i'm just very very full. Cos i had my lunch at 4, then dinner at 7. Thats not a very nice time difference now, is it.
ANYWAY i guess now all my time must be put into chinese. Dont ask why! Maybe look at your watch first. Oh wait, you're not wearing a watch? Then look at mine. OH WAIT i dont wear watches. Why? i feel as thought someone is watching you when you wear it, ya know? Thats alright you dont have to strangle me. Although Whitney did today. haha i kinda miss having someone actually sitting next to you during class. Although the feeling was kinda weird, it was nice today. Cos Zaria didnt come so i sat in her place. Yepyep... that yan tong had to abandon me! Not that i really care much now. At least that table can be put to good use, such as a holding place for our chess games. Haha mavis learnt to play chess today, and she beat Fariza on her 3rd try! Amazing, huh? :) Fast learner that ol' gal.
i for one love chess. i had forgotten how much i actually love it, til of course it was brought back to life thanks to a very nice and bored lady at the school bookshop. Its like an addiction, no? The way you plan your attacks and organise your offense. Its an amazing game, which allows you to coordinate your own simplistic, or even intricate stratedgy... After you finished your game, you really feel as though you've fought a war. Cos your brains are all knocked out and such. Great game. Though i would love to challenge someone else besides my usual 3 friends, to get a different perspective of the game. That the brillance of it. No two games you ever play are exactly the same. i'm sounding like a crazy freak here, am i. BUT WHO CARES! i also just learned how to play Chinese chess. Its an alright game. Though i prefer the English one, more freedom, ya know? i am so bloody hot right now. The bloody weather is bloody fickle. Bloody hell! I'm sounding like a bloody Brit! (no offense i love you Brits)
You know the lies they always told you
And the love you never knew
What’s the things they never showed you
That swallowed the light from the sun
Inside your room
Comin’ down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I go on as you get colder
And I’ll become
What you became to me
rockin' at 10:05 PM
Saturday, May 24, 2003
Bored? Nothing to do? Read if you must.
i am so tired right now... Reached home at about... 6pm, then i took my doggie out for a half hour walk. Man that bunch of hyper, barking, drooling, pulling fulff loves to walk. She enjoyed herself thorougly, i believe. i kinda did... i guess. Hah i was ultra sleepy and sweaty... but seeing her flop down beneath the mango tree makes my effort all worth it. i love her so much, you wouldnt believe it. Once i freaked myself out by imagining life without her. i got really, really scared. Then i hugged her. And when her doggy smell hit me, i was like... "Great, she's still here." She's only 4 years old... still a young, frisky thing. Right now i'll force meself not to think of anything negative. k...
i'm a lobster. My face is all red... in Taka today when we ate lunch at 4, i told cow that she looked mighty red. Then shanna had to turn around and say "You're even REDDER! In fact, the REDDEST!!" Ohmygoodness. i do live up to my name, lobster_leaves. Hah... When we were walking in orchard so many people were looking at us, the red people. Now i know who it is like to be targeted by racists or prejudice. No, i'm just fucking kidding. Then i took my temperature today after i bathed in pure cold water. It was 37.2 degrees... My highest ever! For the past two days i was like 35.7 deg haha. Really.
My oh my the sun can be quite evil. He plans to burn out our eyes, broil our brains and flush our cheeks pink/red. But oh you have to love him! Today was quite fun. i think the 7 of us regs are getting really used to each other... compared to our previous fiascos. But i cant help but feel that i'm not getting enough shit done. The rest of tonight, i dedicate to you -- my chinese book! i must not, will not fail my birthday paper! As long as i pass... it is enough! By God's grace i will do it.
The Lord is my Shepherd: I shall not want
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:
He leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul: He leadeth me in the
Paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the
Shadow of death. I will fear no evil:
For thou art with me: thy rod and
Thy staff they comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the
Presence of mine enemies:
Thou anointest my head with oil:
My cup runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow
Me all the days of my life: and I will
Dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.
Psalm 23
rockin' at 9:35 PM
A big fat THANK YOU to FARIZA who made this blog template especially for me, in two mere hours!!!!!
"Is she human?" "You must be kidding!"
i kid you guys not. Isnt this wonderful?!?!?! :):):):):):) i'm so happy. So so so so so so so so happy. I LOVE YOU FARIZA!!!!!!!! =D
rockin' at 9:14 PM
Friday, May 23, 2003
On a much lighter note, my dad asked me if i wanted a Husky puppy.
i couldnt sleep last night.
i was thinking about it so much... i really want it so badly... i know i already have my own doggie but how can you say no to a husky? i'm thinking about wether i can handle two dogs. My younger sis said "Sure i'll help!" She said the exact same thing for our present dog. Well lookie at who is the lucky one who cleans all the dog shit, brings her for walks and feeds her. Its definetely not her. So i'm looking at my dad, then we'd have to double team and bring both dogs out for walks together.
i'm willing to compromise, to sacrifice times two now. No one else in my family is willing to even help out. We'll see how.
rockin' at 6:28 PM
Mere pathetic, commiserable, feeble words cannot even barely begin to describe how effin low i am right now. i just got back my chinese mid year results... i passed by 0.75%.
"Thats alright! Try harder! The whole class didnt do too well either!"
Well, bully. The fact that i was so fucking close to failing, right on the verge -- does not comfort me knowing that one person failed in our class. i could have been the second. BUT i bloody well have tuition and i did study. You might as well throw me a french exam paper, i think i'd do better in that.
Seriously, i just want to pass that gawddamn paper on my birthday and not touch another chinese book for the rest of the year. If they want me to retake it, i'd tell them, do i look like i can do better in a chinese paper compared to say, humanities or science? Or any other paper for that matter?"
I'd rather eat the paper than do it, then.
Whoever says that the chinese language is essential is a fucking liar. What is essential then? Your fucking common sense. Without it, you'll get screwed a thousand times over. The end.
rockin' at 6:21 PM
Thursday, May 22, 2003
FARIZA!!!!! i found a pic... can you see if its possible to make it into a template? Its here... Yeah the same one on our CGW :)
OR this... What do ya think?
rockin' at 8:22 PM
My posts are a bit shifted to the left... DONT WORRY i'll figure it out. Soon... yup.
So, did you walk your cat today?
rockin' at 8:17 PM
Read this. Its on Avril and it really makes me hate her alot. More. Really, really. If she was right in front of me i'd kill her with my bare hands. Or something to that effect.
rockin' at 7:19 PM
Wednesday, May 21, 2003
Just finished watching Rave... Seighart turned good!!!!! hahahahhaha and that irritating "Beautiful" guy from the Oracion Seis is gay... no need to guess there. Haha k ya. Nothing else to say. i need to feed my dog. kthnxbye.
rockin' at 7:02 PM
So then i saw today... and yesterday... and the day before that... oh yes and the day before that day too. My mind just went *BLEEP* when i saw . My heart was thumping *bleep* *bleep* *bleep*... such a steady, bleepy rythmn. It always happens when i see . Sighhhh... i cant believe even mentioned me on her blog! And it wasnt even a mention... it was a praise! Like... when i saw it i was like, omg!!!! i wont say who is, but i'm sure knows who is.
So, *bleep*, gimme a *bleep* when you see this ya. *Wink*
rockin' at 6:53 PM
Tuesday, May 20, 2003
Comon, you've gotta love them.
rockin' at 7:27 PM
i'm BACK!
Mostly due to some consistent urges and a few persistent threats that would result in something pretty ugly if i didnt do something. But what matters is that my template actually WORKS! With ALOT of help from Fariza (dont know what i'd do without you) thankyouthankyouthankyou. She only proves that no, i am not a dinosaur.
rockin' at 7:03 PM
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