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Church and hypocrisy
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
Listening to Blind by Lifehouse
Last sunday my sister came back from church. She brought back this programme sheet things that the church gives out at every mass. They have this section every week where you can ask a question about God and the church and anything related to religion. This week, someone asked about homosexuals and how they are judged and persecuted. And how it was so hypocritical of the church to then preach about loving everyone equally and as they are. The reply went something like this (i left it around and now its missing so i'm trying to remember it off the top of my head):
"The church teaches you not to judge anyone. You should also not withhold love from homosexuals. In fact, they are the ones that need our extra love, special attention and care. However, this does not mean that what they are doing is not wrong. The bible says that sex between two people of the same sex is wrong, that adultry is wrong, that having sex with anyone else except your marriage partner is wrong. None is more wrong than the other. However, the bible says that sexual intercourse with someone from the same sex is a serious sin..."
Fuck. Seriously fuck. i cant believe they printed that shitty answer. They tell us not to judge people because its wrong to do so and we have no right to judge anyone, yet we can tell homosexuals that what they are doing is wrong. Note the word wrong. Telling someone that what they are doing is wrong is judging them. So thank you church for being as hypocritical as you always were.
I just googled, and i found this page and i think it is the saddest thing i've seen. They tell us that having feelings or desires for someone from the same sex is okay, but to act on them is not. Essentially, they are telling all you gays and lesbians out there to supress your desires and act normal for all your life because that is the "right" thing to do. Honestly, i wouldnt want to live a life where i have to hold back on something that comes naturally and which i strongly feel. Why should you be deprived from emotional love and physical affection all your life when you have no choice to be who you are? The website said you have a choice. You could practise something called "cognitive conditioning" where you could wean yourself from the start to not be homosexual. They even compared it to alcoholism. Wtf seriously. i read that and i honestly felt like screaming at the writer, how fucking retarded can you be?! Alcoholics are not alcoholics because they have an emotional or physical desire for alcohol. Most alcoholics use alcohol to cope with a problem like stress for example. And how is it that we hear so many stories of older guys coming out of the closet after being married and having had kids? You think they havent practised "cognitive conditioning"? They tried it for more than half their lives and realised that they were not living as they were meant to be.
I'm sorry if i sound like i'm bashing my own religion but i really dont understand why the church has such a strong stand against homosexuals. Are they doing something on the same moral grounds as rapists, thieves? i dont like any form of prejudice or judgement, and why i get even more worked up when it comes to the church is that they are essentially teaching more people to judge homosexuals differently. What i hate even more is when they try to "correct" behaviours thinking that its a fucking disease or satanic affliction.
Honestly, i feel that life is too short to be worried if you're going to heaven or hell based on the sayings of an organised religion that has been around for centuries and subject to the hands of ordinary men (whom the church claim was "guided" by God) to create the bible and the laws and teachings. I'd rather care more about how i live my life and the things i do for others around me.
rockin' at 3:19 PM
i live to let you shine
Listening to Boats and Birds by Gregory and the Hawk
I've got my individual oral presentation tomorrow morning! Super duper nervous. i hate speaking in front of crowds (pls cross refer to most embarrassing moment ever nj 2005 hockey captain speech tyvm.) I'm now taking a break from practising. My throat is really killing me. i hope i dont end up going *cough*goodmor*cough*ning*cough*ladiesss. i dont understand why all my different project groups keep insisting that i take on the loudest, most extra role. Last night May from my FA group was like,
"yah stef i think you are a good presenter lah."
"Have you seen me present before??!"
"Er no BUT YOU LOOK LIKE YOU ARE GOOD."
Wtf seriously. I'm really bad. i stammer, form incomplete sentences and skip words when i'm nervous. i remember after my most embarrassing moment ever, one of my old classmates, jason was telling me how surprised he was that i froze up like that. i told him, actually i'm not really that confident. i just act confident. i think that goes for alot of things, not just speeches.
rockin' at 3:03 PM
i heart dad
Monday, October 30, 2006
Listening to Heaven is a Place on Earth by Belinda Carlisle
My dad is just... undescribable. A few days ago he told us the few cars that he considered getting for us. Nissan sunny came up, then he added, "but nissan sunny is a vegetable seller's daughters car leh." Then we haha-ed and that was that.
The other day, he messaged me while i was out. "I getting u and suwen nissan sunny ok." HELLO YOU JUST SAID IT WAS VEGETABLE SELLERS DAUGHTERS CAR! Now you want to get it for us sad :(
Last night my sister was hanging up the laundry with him. Then he started complaining about how my mum loves to nag about how he hangs up the clothes.
Dad: "Your mother so naggy. She always complaining that i hang the clothes not nice not nice one."
Dad: "AS IF WE TAKING PICTURE."
rockin' at 12:07 AM
New friend
Sunday, October 29, 2006
Listening to Late by Ben Folds
Friday night i went to celebrate KangWei's birthday with Al, Sam and his girlfriend, Pearly. We went to this japanese grill restaurant at Cuppage behind Centrepoint. The food was really good! Birthday boy can really order. We ate until damn super full but still could finish. The food highlights were the cold tea noodles, the grilled duck liver and the grilled lamb. But every item that came i ate and loved. Ok except the grilled chicken skin. I'm sorry i just cant eat something that i'm so used to removing all the time. The crispy bits were nice lah but the soft part was just ugh. He paid for dinner! Crazy, seriously crazy i tell you. $250 and he paid for everyone. Me and Al were fighting hard for the bill but he just refused. Regina really he's a damn nice guy! But only if you're nice to him lah obviously. He doesnt like freeloaders or people who take advantage of his money. Ooops sorry reg that leaves you out.
After that we headed to Labrador Park to cut cake. KW seriously sucks at cutting he made a whole mess.
From left, me kangwei and al. Pearly was complaining that he put his legs up like that very argly.
Me squating and eating cake very ugly-ily.
Pearly, kangwei and sam. Haha kw's eyes are closed oops. The boys are my two (+1 al) friday supper buddies and sam sucks.
Me and al! Sometimes i like him, most times i dont. He's being retarded with the facial hair shit cos he has driving test on monday. He says that its so that the tester will have super low expectations of him cos of how unsightly he appears, then when he starts driving averagely, the tester will think WHOA NOT BAD. What the hell right. Scully wait he outright fail him cos he dont like his face.
rockin' at 10:59 PM
My body is Your body
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
Listening to Nobody Move, Nobody Get Hurt by We Are Scientists
i miss my overseas mammoth and my italian tua pau! Faster come back we go whack everything (my turn to drive!)- adam road stingray, crystal jade xiao long bao, random milo dinosaurs and ever greasy pratas!!! (shanna **EDIT OH HUIJIA TOO sure want to come) And MAMBO WITH ME MAMMOTH. i miss our late night anyhow go anywhere do anything as long as we have smokes on us!
Ok today holiday, happy hari raya everyone!! i feel like eating melayu kuehkueh. Today i had lunch with my sisters and mum. Obviously we ate alot. My elder sis was saying how makeup at the airport is alot cheaper, plus my mum has staff discount. So i was very excited and went to check out the Mac store in taka. Took down the colour shades for lipstick and blusher so my mum's gonna pick them up for me :):)
My mum was in turbo-nagging-mode today sial. But i'm slowly learning to just smile and not really listen. Anyway since her nags went into the extremely high unstable regions today, i spent the afternoon cleaning my room. Mopped floor, wiped everything that was exposed to the elements of dirt and dust. Then cleaned the toilet too. i remember cleaning the toilet bowl and thinking to myself, i'm glad my mum makes us do this. i dont want to be a pampered brat who has never cleaned a toilet for 19 years of my life. Its just something that i'd think everyone needs to have done or do, because you use it every single day of your life.
Dinner was at this japanese restaurant called Sun With Moon (i know what a fuck name right) at Wheelock. The food is seriously disgustingly good. But its expensive. Anyway we ate until damn full and i had green tea icecream *heart* for dessert. i got to drive back home, fun. Oh my mum let me drive her car this afternoon. Shes seriously damn naggy. Like my turns also she will complain. Say too sharp one minute and the next its too wide. Her car is just an average sized one somemore. i drive my dad's suv he never complained about turns lahh. Then she will also tell me how much to turn.
Mum: "ok start turning the wheel. turn turn turn turn more turn turn ok ok ok turn turn ok ok"
Me: "I'm turning."
Mum: "ok turn somemore turn turn turn ok ok"
And it wasnt a sharp turn. It was just from a minor road to major. i think if she sits with me in bbdc driving circuit i can just count the number of times she says "turn" until next hari raya. ARGH.
My mum also very spoil market! She doesnt want me and my sis to get a car :( She tells my dad the reason is dunno what insurance for first time driver (for my elder sis since the car will be under her name) will be very high. But it makes no sense cos sooner or later she will have to get insurance for herself!! Then another excuse is that if its under my sis' name, she'll bully me and i wont be able to use the car or something something something. Then i told her with a whine, "but i'd rather that than not having any car at all!!" We suspect is that 1) she wants me to drive her to and from work and 2) shes afraid we will disappear alot more with a car (not as though i dont disappear often now >.<) But my dad is still gonna get us a car :) Most probably either a mitsubishi lancer, a toyota saloon or whatever. Suzuki most probably not lah the swift boot space abit small. Jimi only 2 door. Ok 2 weeks time we go see car cos my sis HAS to go holiday this weekend tsk.
Anyway last night dinner was damn cute.
My dad: "Sigh. You know, when you get to my age, nothing excites me anymore."
Me: "How can. What if stacy gets a boyfriend? What if suwen gets pregnant and marries by next year? Not exciting meh"
My dad: "Ahh yes yes exciting. But just make sure its in that order. Dont go reverse it then suwen gets a boyfriend and stacy gets pregnant okay!"
rockin' at 11:03 PM
SEE THE PASSIONN
Monday, October 23, 2006
Listening to Tiny Vessels by Deathcab For Cutie
Today hockey outing! Grand total of... **play exciting drum music now** FIVE people showed up! Including myself!!! THANKS DEEP, YAZ, RUEBI, BECKS, RAHUL. Ok no they all had good reasons i shall not bitch about them :)
Huijia nis and me!
HURRY GUESS WHOS MESS THIS IS
WHO GUESSED HUIJIA? EVERYONE?? BERTUL!!!!!!
Ok this is a damn gross woman who walked in to order coffee. You could see her ass cheeks, and her entire shirt was transparent. Black bra with folds just happily overflowing for the world to see. Of course i had to take a sneaky pic!
Us 4 girls who came today. Sorry jon you are not in this pic.
rockin' at 12:08 AM
Babi-cue
Sunday, October 22, 2006
Listening to Passenger Seat by Deathcab For Cutie
OK last night nj class barbecue! It was so nice to see everyone! Especially YOU THREE BITCHES!!!!!
**Edit FUCK WEAR SHORT SKIRTS SOMEMORE LAH I HAVE SLARTY FRIENDS**
Shit we were really just in a world of our own. Bitched, gossiped, insulted regina and her angmoh-nized indon boyfriend, and ate ate ate. Stingray was good. Cake was like mango salad! Or as spongebob says, saa-lat.
Come see pretty huiyan in the center with her super hot mature modern chick hairstyle!
Siewee and regina sharing a chinese sausage. Jiahwa i want my share sausage pic with you and siewee! It looks how lomantik.
Ok not many pics cos i didnt charge my camera. How smart :( Yes so it was a nice night save for the irritating @*&$#@ whom i didnt talk to. Yay!
rockin' at 11:29 PM
Time to Dou Feng!
Listening to Love Me Like You by The Magic Numbers
I passed my driving test!! Damn bloody happy. I'm so glad i didnt fail cos then i'd be so very embarrassed and i'll have to find a nice dark hole somewhere that no one will see my face and recognise it as the one who failed driving twice - taking auto car. So yay i passed on my second try. Got 14 points. Seriously i dont know how the tester mark man. Anyhow one lah he see what box he like then happy happy tick. He ticked one box that is supposed to give 4 points but he wrote there 2, then i went to see what was it for - and it read "Moving off with the wrong gear selected". Wtf. I'm taking auto - i didnt realise i could even move in the wrong gear. But obviously i just shut up and crossed my fingers as he counted the points. My heart was beating damn loudly lah paisey if people hear. Then when he ticked the "passed" box i just started smiling.
Cant wait to start "dou feng-ing", using shanna's expression! And yes farah its my turn now to drive you all over singapore (especially to boonlay). So exciting!
Oh last night damn funny. i went for supper with Al, Sam and Kong Wei who is sam's good friend. We were at Changi Village having supper, then al noticed that sam was distracted. So he asked, "Eh why you keep looking at that food stall? You still hungry?" Then i anyhow said "haha no lah he looking at that mak cik!" And then dunno whos the IDIOT who went to go say "omg sam's third fettish! Tudongs!!!" HAHAHA "must be soft, smooth and silky right cannot be lacy wait not nice to touch". Quick info: 4 of us were talking about fettishes the previous outing. Sam's biggest fettish is a girl wearing a smooth, silky black bra. He doesnt like lace or anything that isnt smooth. So we just applied to tudong. We are damn bad to him. But i dont care he's not very nice to me anyway. These three kukus are gonna be my permanent friday supper group already man. Whole day talk rubbish. They treat me like one of them already, i no lanjiao they still dont give me chance.
rockin' at 12:10 AM
NEIGHBOURHOOD
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
Listening to Blue Light by Bloc Party
LOOK WHAT I DUG UP!
HAHAHA fuck! Remember ruebi went to put on the bloody nj website for the whole world to see!!
OK nj hockey gathering this sun pls. Everyone come come lai lai dont shy
rockin' at 4:25 PM
I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say
Sunday, October 15, 2006
Listening to I Promise you by When In Rome
You dont realise how lonely you've been until you've experienced something beyond yourself. It seems like i've been living all my life in selfish, narcissistic indulgence; i never saw the need to genuinely think of someone else's needs, their feelings, their thoughts, their passions, their ambitions, their desires.. Everything that was important to them. It never was as important to me. i realised that. i labelled myself insensitive; i figured i was incapable of ever liking a person for everything that defined them - imperfections and all. Was i fussy? i thought i was. But now, i dont believe that. Its not that you are being fussy or selective or fuck. Its just that you are acting on how you genuinely feel. You dont convince yourself that you like a person just because he fulfills your entire checklist of "The Attributes of My Dream Boyfriend". Neither can you convince yourself that you dont like someone due to the fact that he has lousy taste in music or that he has zero appreciation of the arts or of literature.
Its your imperfections that make you perfect. And you're perfect for me.
rockin' at 8:58 PM
Fappy Birthday!
Monday, October 09, 2006
Happy birthday mummy!
The oh-so-yummy cake! Its chocolate mousse with a crispy wafer base. And i dont know if you can see it, but the words say "Fappy Birthday". My dad insists that its the cool way of doing it now. Uhh, okay.
The present we got her. Turns out we got her the exact same dessert guide book for christmas! Fuck haha. We have lousy memory and even lousier gift ideas.
My sinful slice!
I've seriously been overeating for the past few days. Yesterday we had dinner at Esmirada in Chijmes, which serves Mediterranean cuisine. i not only had a full main course on my own, but we also shared dessert (creme brule and two servings of tiramisu) between everyone! Too bad my camera was with my elder sister, or i'd have snapped deliciously gorgeous shots of whats in my tummy now.
rockin' at 10:18 PM
Lessons to be learnt from fish food
Listening to You, Who Do You Hate by Mansun
i have nothing interesting to say.
Okay how about a story? My dad had a bad stomache, so he took the chinese herbal remedy POH CAI YIN, which comes in tiny pellets in a small bottle. While he was sitting outside, he accidently dropped a couple of pellets onto the floor. But it wasnt important so he forgot about it and that was that. The next day, he was sitting around smoking his cigar, when he noticed the small, round pellets on the floor. He immediately thought them to be fish food which he must have accidently dropped while feeding the fish, so he dropped the two pellets back into the tank. One fuck greedy fish went to nibble on it, spit it back out, but being the greedy fuck it was, ate it all up.
The next day my dad found it floating upside down.
Moral is: dont be a greedy fuck. OK HUIJIA?!?!
rockin' at 4:59 PM
Netball and God
Thursday, October 05, 2006
Listening to Girls in the Back by White Rose Movement
Ok terri asked for an update! Last week was Sports Fiesta at SMU. So one of my seniors who is our head for our leadership course was taking part in the netball tourny. He asked us to go down support his team, so me and my friends did.
The very first game, his team was up against the Basketball team. It was like huge mother tall guys and girls, towering over everyone else. So obviously they were getting thrashed pretty badly. So while my friend was subbed out, i asked him, "how did you get your team together? Where you all from." He said, "Christian Fellowship." So i told him, "You guys didnt pray just now before playing right? No wonder you all losing."
rockin' at 12:22 AM
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